One of the the things that really helps pick me up is what I spent most of my Christmas vacation working on. As I spoke last time about voicelessness and that feeling of disenfranchisement, today I want to show you and share with you all what I do to recover that feeling or at least what I try to make myself less suicidal.
This song is from Pitch Perfect (2012) and is sung by Anna Kendrick. I practiced for so long with whatever cup or mug or round implement I could source to get this good and I still screwed it up in the middle. Cups, when I first heard it, reminded me of You’re Beautiful by James Blunt in that it could have been about suicide. Whereas Blunt’s song is about the loss of a friend, I found Cups to be what I’d say to the world and everybody in it before I topped myself. It is too upbeat to actually have anything to do with suicide; most likely, it’s about a girl threatening to dump her lover. Yet, my warped and twisted mind didn’t see that, so on my quest to recapture and find my lost (or hopefully, just misplaced!) voice, I started singing this song.
Another thing I would like to share with you is a multivox recording I made a few months ago and it’s been one of my favourite songs ever since the musical episode of Grey’s Anatomy. It’s my cover of Chasing Cars, originally recorded by Snow Patrol. I was feeling a bit better in my own skin during the day I recorded this and I hope you’ll listen through. The last 2 or so minutes are the best. This is probably what gives me the greatest joy: recording the melody and then layering harmony lines sung by myself because no one else would have me, but then I can’t get away from my own voice and what it can do. This is also something I am proud of and it’s not even something I can do that well. Just goes to show, I guess, that everyone has some glimmer of light in their life evening if it’s on the blink or fading most of the time. Just another way media and embracing it can help those who battle depression every day and take you back to a time when you felt music move you and rush through your every nerve and pore. I hope I find my way back and have Music for a While in every meaning.
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